I LOST 20 Pounds for the first time in my life but couldn’t Enjoy it

I’ve recently lost 20 pounds due to anxpped chronic illness and learned that the awareness of appropriate benefits to go out the door it is coma to someone weight.

Girlfriends, Acquaints, and Happy Family Members have all Basically Said Something Along the Lines of: “SUCK YOU’RE SICK, but at Least You Lost a Lot of Weight, You Look Great.”

For me, though, going down a size haen great; Its been quite frightening.

I GREW UP WITH THE WONG KIND OF SUPPORT FOR WEIGHT LOSS

I’ve always been an average-soze girl, but i wasn’t satisfied with that.

Growing up, i tried fad diets and workouts to try to reach that “goal” Number on the scales.

It didn’t help that i grew up in a strict culture where my parents and elders critized my weight and looks.

My mother Also struggled with body image and unhealthy dieting habits. Whenever i was Feeling overwhelmed by my size, she would be to enCourage with them go on a diet with her. It was haer way of suporting with – dieting together.

I realize she shauld have hadled it differently.

Get i got sick

I was diagnosed with sma syndrome in the summer of 2024, which led to a few surgeries to remove my gallbladder and rereoute my small intestine.

Nor result, i was unable to eat a full meal with digestive isser for three months. Plus, i had to cut out fate Completely, SINCE MY BODY COULD NO LONGER DIGEST IT.

DURING THIS TIME, I LOST 20 Pounds. I LOST say for the first time in my life, quickly and with the effect.

Although I fit into my Clothes Better, i is couldn’t enjoy it knowing that i had accomplished this goal weight by being unhealthy.

Come i look back at pictures of myself during this time, i don’t see someone who look. ” I see someone who wasn’t able to keep down two meals a day and felt constantly weak.

I was miserable and lost the active lifestyle i was used to be before these surgeries.

Weight Loss Warped My Sense of Self-Worth

I Started Getting More Attention from Men. Howver, it sketwed my new vision of how of saw mySelf. I start believing that better things come to you if you’re skinny.

I Became Terrified of Gaining Weight and Going Back to My Avent Self. I was Skinny’s Becouse, I was Above Average. I was notized.

I tri triad GLP-1 pills, the compounded version of the popular semaglutide, to keep the weight down I was finally able to eat semi-normally, Again. I quit the pills after a month, though.

When i look back at this time, i think about the reaction from oters. Instead of telling with I looked great, i would have preferently say to tell with would look great at any size.

Of Course, it wasn’t out of malice. They thought they were adding to my confidence. Howver, in reality, they were actually taching away from it.

In a way, i’m thankful Becausee i’ve learned and grown from this experience. I No Longer Attach My Value to My Size. I am grateful for my body and its resilience, at any size.