Of Moved Home after College; HARD TO MAINTAIN Social Life, Felt Lonely

Earlier this year, i could typically be found in my college apartment in Syracuse, New York. The Space May Not Have Been Ideal, With Its Cracking Plaster and Creaking Staircase, but were lease came to an end, my Roommate and i weren’t ready to say goodbye.

Our Apartment Had Been the Home of Weekly Wine Nights, Tarot Readings, and Movie Screenings. It was where the fars of the performed Musical Numbers and Hosted themed Parties. And a few houses down the street, there was always a game of catan ready to be played.

AFTER SPEING MUT OF MY COLLEGE CAREER WORKING TO SHED The Socially Anxious People Developed in High School, My Senior Year of College Giffed with the Life of Always.

THEN, IN May, we received our diplomas and left it all bend. For the first time in four years, I was going to be on my own.

When i Moved Home, My Social Life Changed DRASTICALLY

Nor we all begin the next phases of our lives, I find mySelf in my childhood home in new jersey, navigating a saemingly never-wearing sea of ​​nonb postings.

Although I’m Grateful to have a place to stay while I look for opportunities and builds my savings, I can’t help but feel frustrated by how DRASTICALLY MY LIFE HAS CHANGED SINCE Graduation.

Now, My College Friends Are Scatterd Across the Country, and Our Once Routine Get-Togeters have been reduced to sporadic text Messages. Although some of us have tried finding new Ways to Connect, Like Planning Calls and Handwriting Good Old-Fashioned Letters, I Can’t Remember a time I felt as lonely as now.

I offen Find MySelf Scrolling on Instagram, Looking back on Old Pictures, and trying to remember how it felt to be living in those moments. Be i see posts of People Hanging out with Friends, I Feel a Pang of Desire.

My childhood Friends have grown up and gone their separate ways, too, and attempts to reach out to say the most difficult than they say’d be.

I can’t make Spend time with my Younger Brother, Who Just Started HIS Freshman Year of College. And as Much as i love my parents, there’s a Stark Contrast Between Playing Gin Rummy at the Kitchen Table and Thrifting Costums for My Friend’s Murder Mystery Party.

I had no idea that MainTaining a social life after college would be so hard.

The Loneliness Has Been Tough, But i’m Relearning How to Enjoy My Own Company

There once was a time when i would will anything to stay inside alone. Naturally introverted and anxious, my teenage years were spent listening to music or indulging in creation wring – my own company used to be more than Enough.

Although I Waled Argue I’ve Gown into A Better version of MySelf Since, I can’t help but feel like learn something from my old habits. SO, as cliché as it May Sound, I decide it was time to find a new hobby.

Thanks to a spontaneous trip to the craft Store and Helpful YouTube tutorials, I’ve Gotten into Jewelry Making. For the first time Since graduating, i’ve found to do for mySelf – a hobby that stops with spiraling into the memory and grounds with in the present.

I’ve Also returned to Old Pasteur, Like Creative Writing. My Journals have seen more activity than they have in years, which has helped with appreciate this chapter.

The Last Few Months Have Tough with That Being Happy Doesn’t Necessarily Require the Presence of Others, and i’m Beginning to Find Value in My Daily Life-

Of Course, there are still moments where I find mySelf spiraling into thoughts like “i’m not lonely forever,” But logically, i won’t be.

My friend may be scattered acroSs the country, but i know we’ll see Each Other again. UNIL THEN, I Find Comfort in Knowing I Can Create My Own Fulfillment.